Damn, I need some sleep. FUCK IT!
I never thought I'd put my social life above school. I just got home from a Cinco de Mayo party... I'm so over those. Fuck, I'm celebrating Diez de Junio bitches!!!! Anyone wanna join me? I'm gonna get fuckin trashed and chill really hard the next day!!!! WHOOOOO!!!!!!!! :/
Anyway, so look at me! I'm going to GNC later this week and I'm gonna buy some protein powder. Then I'm going to my gym and I'm gonna go apeshit all over their equipment for like an hour, then come home all sweaty and eat a steak!!! I will do this 6 times a week and rest on Wednesday. Just a random day I picked just now. Seriously though the gym and protein thing is true. I'm sick of being a twig. Lol, it's not like I have a bad body... I just want it to be bigger. C'mon just give me some PROPS!!!!
I got T's number. I don't know why I'm still dwelling on this. I thought I was over it. Hey, he seems to really like me, and I like attention. He asks Dana about me all the time. :) I guess I'm likeable... ha right? :( Don't answer that.
I'm really trying not to fail any of my classes this semester but I'm not doing a good job. Here's to 2 weeks from now when I won't fucking care to remember what happened at this time!
I'll be back, I have to type a works cited page...........
Can i get a?......
Word to the Wise...
Do not fall for someone you're jealous of!
I really don't know what kind of advise this is, if it can be considered advice at all. I just fell into a trap. This guy I like, T, I think/thought was amazing. I don't think we have the best conversations but he's always managed to keep my interests. Physically however I'm very pleased with him. It never ceases to amaze me how physically attracted I am to him. Every time he comes around I want to just stare, but I know I can't. That would be too much. He has such a great ass. Football has done him VERY good.
It used to make me happy just to see him, but things have changed.
I get irritated when he comes around. When he talks to other people I get slightly jealous. He says things to me like "We're going to get you to fill out that shirt. You should come work out with us." or if some hot girl comes around he whispers, "I think she came here because of me." What the hell? Confidence is one thing... THAT! That is not confidence, it's arrogance. Arrogance in anyone pisses me off. Or am I just jealous. Maybe she did come over here because he's drop dead gorgeous. I mean, he does get ME going.
It sucks. I have such bad days when he's around. I can't always tell if he genuinely likes me as a person or if I'm just somebody else to talk to. I'm getting over him though... I don't think this is healthy. I never have. There's got to be somebody else out there for me.
PS: Never really got that saying... Why would I be giving advice TO the wise? I'm a dumbass I know.
Spittin' a verse...
This weekend I've finally been hanging with one of my really great friends K. We spent a couple nights at a coffee shop. We need to find another spot. People are starting to know us there.
A couple nights ago we had been there pretty late and we we're having a pretty nice conversation and this guy walks in. He seemed a bit unkempt, he was carrying a lot of stuff that he just dropped at the nearest table. He was most likely homeless. He was talking to himself quite a bit so all of us pretty much looked down and tried not to make eye contact. Lol, yeah I know that's mean but seriously we're trying to make it outta there alive. Why are we mean?
There were these two guys sitting at a table directly across from us and the man decides he was going to rap for them. He just stops right in front of them and starts flowing... non stop. :(
We all instinctively picked up our drinks and walked out the door. I felt sorry for those two guys. We shoulda stuck it out with them, but hey I didn't want a show.
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I think Omarion is so hot...
Just adorable.
And he's gained some size, too. I think I like em bulky. I don't know why.
I don't really like the song or his voice. I just put the video on mute and look at his body and those beautiful lips. :D totally reminds me of T.
Man handled
I'm preparing for classes at around 6 Wednesday morning. Fun Stuff! I'm not thinking about classes. I'm thinking about the rest of my day. Okay wait! I won't lie. I was a bit worried about what my grade would be on the midterm I took in Business Law. And I was freaked about my test in Organizational Behavior. I didn't put my glasses on when I was typing my paper topic for Business Law. Honestly I'm not sure exactly what ended up on the paper I printed out. I step in the law class, on time for the first time since I started the class. A new leaf has been turned. He sets the tests on the table for everyone to retrieve. Free for all. I sift through each one with every other person in the class invading my personal space. Finally MINE! I sit down in my seat frantically searching for the grade...
225.... 225? What was this out of. 600? No.... 250! 225/250... ???
90%... A! Relieved doesn't begin to describe!
Literally the rest of that class passed by in what seemed to be mere seconds. My next class, Organizational behavior. Test. Not just any test. A midterm... She passes them out almost 10 minutes into class. This is only a 50 minute class. Lucky for us the test was 15 questions. Multiple choice. I was outta there!
Me and D. spent pretty much the whole rest of the day together. It was pretty amazing! First we went to the mall. I had money finally. This was my time. Relax, and spend. I bought a pair of shoes. I haven't had new shoes since last Christmas... and I didn't even buy them. We talked then I bought two polos. We talked some more. She's great. Then I bought a scarf. If you saw the video I posted before this Hok (Australian on Quest Crew) was wearing one exactly like it.... I'm happy now. I haven't bought things for myself in about a year. It's cool to do for yourself once in a while.
Then we played pool and we started talking about T (This is Ponze... I refuse to call him that because it sounds stupid.) Me D and T have talked with eachother for a while and she was telling me about how she notices things.... What things?
She said "it's obvious that you like eachother!"... What?... What makes it obvious?
"The way he looks at you. The way he always touches you when we're talking."
He pats me on the arm, or shoulder, or back every chance he gets. I figured it's just a guy thing. I tried to put it in the back of my mind. No need getting too optimistic. It made me feel good though. The way he looks at me. Those sly touches he gives me when ever he gets the chance. How he spends almost every minute of his off time talking to me. Making up conversations.
Later we went to see Slumdog Millionaire. The movie was great! Very original concept and the actors the ones you see every day. Everything seemed fresh. Frieda Pinto is beautiful, and Dev Patel is talented and awesome. I thoroughly enjoyed it and recomend it.
We ended off at Coffee Cartel and further planned our trip to Chicago and maybe a road trip next year. This had to have been one of the best days ever. I can see there being so much more! I gotta stay positive, positivity is all I have. =)
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PS. ABDC SPOILER ALERT
Quest took it. Yes the men won again. They did good though. I gotta comend them on their performance, but I must say not only did Beat Freaks give them a run for their money they out performed them a lot of times too. Honestly Shane jinxed them and I think he might need to start shuting that pie hole.
BUT GREAT JOB TO BOTH CREWS!
