So I figured today I was going to have this EPIC post about how great my day was, how I'll be hanging out with T on Thursday, how I finished all my school work, and how I got my new shoes in the mail.
Well God was like "FUCK ALL OF THAT!!!"
My day sucked hairy giraffe balls. :( I did end up finishing my paper (full of bs) and doing okay on my final. So I guess the first 2hours of my day wasn't that bad. Then I went for a nap...
I kept waking up because I thought I heard someone knocking on the door! MY SHOES! I kept running to the door to see nothing but porch, grass, and fuck! :( Then I had to go to work. I didn't even get to talk to Dana much and T was there. :( I don't have fun when he's there. I concentrate too much on him. Plus the lack of sleep made me irritable. I went into full on jerk mode... I was only playing with him, and he knows it so it was okay. I feel like I'm still a little jealous of him and I want to make him feel bad because I know I'm smarter than him. I don't think that's the right way to approach it, and looking at it now makes me seem a little immature.
Now originally me and T we're supposed to hang by ourselves, BUT I wanted Dana to go and I guess so did T. Dana wanted to go too. So we decided "Why not?" I guess the plan is we're going to meet with Dana at around 7, go to the mall, then play some pool. I guess. :/ It's odd because I think it could be fun and then again it could go horribly wrong.
I have mixed feelings but because I didn't quite feel comfortable with hanging out with him by myself, but at the same time I wonder how much we're going to learn about each other with the three of us there. T_T I don't know. I need some sleep.
Btw T is a poor man's Reggie Bush. Hey it's not a bad thing it's just my most accurate portrayal.
Yet another final tomorrow.
Today is Let Down Day
Can i get a?......
Damn, I need some sleep. FUCK IT!
I never thought I'd put my social life above school. I just got home from a Cinco de Mayo party... I'm so over those. Fuck, I'm celebrating Diez de Junio bitches!!!! Anyone wanna join me? I'm gonna get fuckin trashed and chill really hard the next day!!!! WHOOOOO!!!!!!!! :/
Anyway, so look at me! I'm going to GNC later this week and I'm gonna buy some protein powder. Then I'm going to my gym and I'm gonna go apeshit all over their equipment for like an hour, then come home all sweaty and eat a steak!!! I will do this 6 times a week and rest on Wednesday. Just a random day I picked just now. Seriously though the gym and protein thing is true. I'm sick of being a twig. Lol, it's not like I have a bad body... I just want it to be bigger. C'mon just give me some PROPS!!!!
I got T's number. I don't know why I'm still dwelling on this. I thought I was over it. Hey, he seems to really like me, and I like attention. He asks Dana about me all the time. :) I guess I'm likeable... ha right? :( Don't answer that.
I'm really trying not to fail any of my classes this semester but I'm not doing a good job. Here's to 2 weeks from now when I won't fucking care to remember what happened at this time!
I'll be back, I have to type a works cited page...........
Man handled
I'm preparing for classes at around 6 Wednesday morning. Fun Stuff! I'm not thinking about classes. I'm thinking about the rest of my day. Okay wait! I won't lie. I was a bit worried about what my grade would be on the midterm I took in Business Law. And I was freaked about my test in Organizational Behavior. I didn't put my glasses on when I was typing my paper topic for Business Law. Honestly I'm not sure exactly what ended up on the paper I printed out. I step in the law class, on time for the first time since I started the class. A new leaf has been turned. He sets the tests on the table for everyone to retrieve. Free for all. I sift through each one with every other person in the class invading my personal space. Finally MINE! I sit down in my seat frantically searching for the grade...
225.... 225? What was this out of. 600? No.... 250! 225/250... ???
90%... A! Relieved doesn't begin to describe!
Literally the rest of that class passed by in what seemed to be mere seconds. My next class, Organizational behavior. Test. Not just any test. A midterm... She passes them out almost 10 minutes into class. This is only a 50 minute class. Lucky for us the test was 15 questions. Multiple choice. I was outta there!
Me and D. spent pretty much the whole rest of the day together. It was pretty amazing! First we went to the mall. I had money finally. This was my time. Relax, and spend. I bought a pair of shoes. I haven't had new shoes since last Christmas... and I didn't even buy them. We talked then I bought two polos. We talked some more. She's great. Then I bought a scarf. If you saw the video I posted before this Hok (Australian on Quest Crew) was wearing one exactly like it.... I'm happy now. I haven't bought things for myself in about a year. It's cool to do for yourself once in a while.
Then we played pool and we started talking about T (This is Ponze... I refuse to call him that because it sounds stupid.) Me D and T have talked with eachother for a while and she was telling me about how she notices things.... What things?
She said "it's obvious that you like eachother!"... What?... What makes it obvious?
"The way he looks at you. The way he always touches you when we're talking."
He pats me on the arm, or shoulder, or back every chance he gets. I figured it's just a guy thing. I tried to put it in the back of my mind. No need getting too optimistic. It made me feel good though. The way he looks at me. Those sly touches he gives me when ever he gets the chance. How he spends almost every minute of his off time talking to me. Making up conversations.
Later we went to see Slumdog Millionaire. The movie was great! Very original concept and the actors the ones you see every day. Everything seemed fresh. Frieda Pinto is beautiful, and Dev Patel is talented and awesome. I thoroughly enjoyed it and recomend it.
We ended off at Coffee Cartel and further planned our trip to Chicago and maybe a road trip next year. This had to have been one of the best days ever. I can see there being so much more! I gotta stay positive, positivity is all I have. =)
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PS. ABDC SPOILER ALERT
Quest took it. Yes the men won again. They did good though. I gotta comend them on their performance, but I must say not only did Beat Freaks give them a run for their money they out performed them a lot of times too. Honestly Shane jinxed them and I think he might need to start shuting that pie hole.
BUT GREAT JOB TO BOTH CREWS!
Can I not just forget?
Well I'm gonna need a little history for this one! So this guy, I'll call him Ponze, lol! (I probably won't remember that tomorrow.) I guess you can say I have this crazy crush on him. This is my problem. I don't think I can feel like this for too long. It seems so unhealthy, but I like it so much. I find myself thinking about him when in class, at home, everywhere. It's really quite sad I guess.
Well I met him while I was working. He was actually renting a video. He's kinda big, like football player big. Ha well considering he's a football player. He seems like your average jock. He definitely looked like one when he was standing there in his wifebeater and basketball shorts. He came up to the counter and of course I was intimidated, not because of his size but how cute he was. Up until this point I had only seen the back of him. Hey, that was pretty pleasant view too. Well, he asked me if we had a video in, then said "Don't make funna me, but I want the Lion King." I just smiled and said Yeah we probably do somewhere. He seemed a little embarrassed and then said it was for his little cousin. "Yeah, sure. Ha, it's cool Lion King's definitely a classic."
Now I'm thinking not only is he physically awesome but mentally too. I mean come one THE LION KING? =) I was even more shocked to know that he worked there too! Now I was fully in crush mode. Of course it wasn't nearly as strong as it is now. I mean I had no reason to believe this guy was gay... at all. No... like, AT ALL! Later on he would come into an aisle that I was working in and just chat, Eventually it was Halloween and I asked him his plans fully expecting him to say some college party or something. Well he said he was just going to sit around and watch scary movies! The essence of Halloween. He's just gotten 10x cuter to me. I totally missed the chance to sit with him and makeout watch scary movies.
Anyway I've begun to get more and more confused about his, well I guess, sexuality. Literally he comes around me and talks about movies that might have had a gay character in them. He knows a lot of hot male actors, and he likes them for their "acting skills." Like Hayden Christiansen or Jesse Metcalfe, and 
Jason Statham. I mean really, the only one with acting chops (and this is a big maybe) is Statham. Lol! He also doesn't know the names of many female celebs. He told me liked "That girl from 'That 70's Show!'" Yeah how about Mila Kunis.... Then he asked me if I were to "be with" any celebrity who would it be.... I said Keri Hilson. =( Anyway he even mixed up saying guy and girl before when talking about relationships. He sometimes calls me on the work phones when he knows I'm there, and when I don't pick up he tells me about it. He totally goes out of his way to say things to be when he sees me. And I always know he's happy when I'm around. :( I just wish I could tell him how happy he make me sometimes...
Then he goes on to flirt with random chicks. *sigh*
It also makes me jealous because he's really attractive, and these girls tend to respond. Smiles, second looks and the like! I couldn't do that even if I did try to flirt. I'm not that sexy.
Today I got this text from my friend D sayin "I think you're right about R. liking Ponze.".... ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS!? That is not something I wanted to be right about! R. is D's friend. And R, for lack of better phrasing, likes to sleep and flirt with guys... a lot. Will she was talking to Ponze one day, giving him Maudi Gras beads and he said. "I'm not going to be able to fit those around my thick ass neck." I looked at him yeah he was right, it was pretty thick :)
Well R said exactly that, and then said something about getting a tattoo of her on his sexy neck and she'll be his boo. :( I proceeded to throw up a little in my mouth. I told D about this later and she reassured me that R flirts with everyone! She totally thinks Ponze is gay and wants him to admit it.... Then I get this fucking fantastic text! She doesn't flirt with ME! *sigh* I have sooo many feelings running through my head, jealousy, sadness, anger, and just plain fed up. I need to stop thinking about this guy. It just isn't healthy. I've never wanted to be one of those lame people crushing over someone that doesn't even notice them.