I've been doing this school thing for well.... 15 close to 16 years now and I don't think it's working. Granted I love learning with every ounce of my body. I was even teaching myself Japanese for a while! Learning is my passion! I can't get enough of it. I just don't get formal education. It's not that it's hard... it's just sooo mundane! I can't help but walk into a classroom and feel a rush of boredom just pour over me. My eyes start to glaze over and I feel sleep bristling at my shoulders, reaching around and trying to softly shut my eyes as if I'm laying there dead...
Ugh. I skipped class today. This has to be like my 3rd or 4th time. I'm loosing count. I was asleep. I didn't feel productive. It's not like I had anything better to do. i just slept.... It felt good. I hate that. I've been trying to go to class more and more. It's bad enough that my first classes are at 8 in the morning. One of my last classes ends at 10:30 and it's a 4 and a half hour class. WHAT WAS I THINKING!? Not to mention my mind is elsewhere. I'm thinking about love, life, heroes, villains, Japan, Italy, France, Spain, comics, video games, blogs, and food. Everything but my 18 hours of classes. Even now I should be studying for a speech I have to give (That's my 4.5 hour class.) 面倒くさいね
I want to do well, I want to graduate! Ultimately I want to do something with my bachelors degree, earn/save up some money and move to California! I don't want to be here the rest of my life. I can't, I won't allow it! I need to get my attitude straight. I need to weigh the pros and cons. Is one day of sleeping in reallygoing to get me where I need to be. Of course not! Being well rested and being well educated sometimes don't go hand in hand. Maybe I just need a cute guy to keep me coming to class. Yes that would help. Ugh I need to concentrate and do this informational speech. If I don't I will die. I cannot fail Public speaking!!!!! AGAIN!!!!!
Maybe, it's not meant to be!
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A cute boy never hurts but you are going to need to better motivation because cute today becomes what was I thinking tomorrow. Seriously, I dealt with all that while in undergrad and grad school. I put my life on hold so I get to where I wanted to be. Not that I recommend that path but it worked.
I think I'm in the same situation with you, but there's only one cute boy ini all my classes and I actually like that class. The english and art history I can do without and I hate those classes. I've skipped a few times, but don't know how many. And I also want to move to cali. I think we should pull our money together and just leave ASAP.
I am noticing that skipping class is an addictive habit. x__x I am on the same boat as well.
Dude J, that would be awesome! SOCAL here I come!!!! :)
it's quite funny how everybody wants to move out to california. i guess ppl like me who has lived in california my whole life take for granted what it has to offer. i'll wake up tommorrow and appreciate california more on your behalf. = )
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